Thursday, September 18, 2014

Jude and Luke 9 months

Jude and Luke are 9 months old today. This has been a fun month of exploration and learning the word, "No."

They are talking and babbling almost constantly. They play and laugh together. Jude follows Luke everywhere. Jude is army crawling almost as quickly as Luke crawls on all fours. Although Jude looks more like a lizard to me.

Jude still only has 2 bottom teeth and now Luke has his bottom 2 teeth as well.

They now think they need to be eating whatever we are eating so mushy baby food is almost a thing of the past. They still get 7-8oz of formula or breastmilk every 3-4 hours. They are sleeping 10-12 hours a night with two 1.5-2.5 hour naps a day. Self feeding is one of the cutest, funniest things to watch.

Jude loves to clap.

This was the first time Luke pulled up on something.

This sums them up. Luke is my explorer and Jude, though he does like following Luke around, he is more likely to stay put and play.

Sweet profile of his duck lips

Sweet Jude's pumpkin face.


They move so much its hard to get clear pictures! But you can still catch the cuteness of this shark and monkey.

This cute baby (Luke), standing jut like this, looked up and saw my coke can. I said, "You see momma's coke?" He clear as day said, "Coke." Then I kept prodding just in case it was a fluke. Sure enough, he kept saying, Coke. He babbles other words, but Coke he said on cue.

Happy 9 months to my favorite baby boys!

Tuesday, August 19, 2014


Once they placed these 2 precious babies in my arms something in me ignited that I never anticpated. Yes there was so much excitement and love that is indescribable.... but what I did not anticipate was fear. I wasn't fearful of my role as caregiver, but fearful of all of the unknowns that I could not control. Germs, SIDS, accidents, etc.... I never anticpated to feel so weighted down by this emotion. I definitely think my babies being born in cold December didnt help but the external was nothing compared to my internal battle.

I am currently reading a book called Tame Your Fears by Carol Kent. I recommend this to everyone. We all have fears of something and struggle at different levels but this book covers it all and points out the obvious... Living in fear is sin. Worrying is straight up disobedience. 

Talk about a punch in the gut. 

Growing up in church we know this stuff. We can quote the scriptures. We know there are 365 of them on fear. But do we live this out? Or are we living in bondage to something that is robbing our joy and literally putting a sin barrier up in our lives.

Decemeber 18, 2013... I had no idea that all of this was beginning. I knew I was a protective mom (still am! and I don't apologize for it. God gave me the responsibility of taking care these babies. No one else.) However being a protective mom is very different than being a fearful mom. 

A protective mom prays.
A fearful mom worries.

A protective mom surrenders her family to the Lord.
A fearful mom tries to control everything.

We (I) have a choice. I can be fearful. Or I can remember that yes, I birthed these babies, but they are simply on loan to me. I have the responsibility to raise them, but they are not really mine. I can hold on with white knuckles or I can surrender these precious babies to the One who loves them more than me.

I am learning. I am taking baby steps. I am not a super mom. I am human. But I am thankful for the One who is walking beside me in this journey. He created me and my family. And more than that, He loves me and my family and desires a healthy relationship with me (us) not a power struggle.

Monday, August 18, 2014

Jude and Luke 8 months

As stated on social media earlier, this is what 8 months of cuteness looks like:

Luke is crawling and into everything.

Jude is getting everywhere by means of rolling... and I do mean everywhere.

They love playing ball...

They love their jumparoos.

They love the water.. and here are the chubby bubbies getting ready for it.

They love being silly... or maybe we love being silly and they are willing participants.

They love singing songs.

They love wrestling with one another but normally they don't love it at the same time.

And their favorite activity currently is sitting on daddy's shoulders, playing with his head.

And a big milestone for this momma was putting them in the church nursery a week ago sunday, August 10. They did great and so did momma. :) 

As stated above, they are moving around like crazy. Luke still has 0 teeth and Jude still only has the 2 front, bottom ones. They are drinking 7oz every 3-3.5 hours (breast milk part of the time and formula the other) and eating baby food 2-3 times a day. We have started introducing them to table food... to which their favorite seems to be homemade ice cream. (at least thats their daddy's opinion because thats his favorite food.)They take 2-3 naps a day and sleep 10-12 hours at night. 

I blame their Grammy and Bebe because they are spoiled rotten! Luke is more content being alone than Jude. Jude still gets the title of more high maintenance. But they still are sweet, good, happy babies which I am sure to thank Jesus for everday! 

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

We're home!

At least for a little while, we are back home. The mag drip proved to be successful and slowed everything down so after 9.5 days in the hospital they released us to go home. I am of course still on bed rest and will continue to be until they boys are born but we are so thankful to have at least made it another week with the boys still baking.

29 weeks:

To answer some of your questions:
- How am I feeling? I feel great. My belly is def getting bigger and and heavier so laying on my left side with pillows is the most comfortable.

-How am I emotionally? I think I'm good. I have moments where I feel so bad about being useless when D is doing so much (without any complaints) but then to put it all into perspective of why I have to be useless makes it all worth it. Even when I was in the hospital, I was ok with it. People kept asking how I was emotionally about being hospitalized for possibly the duration of my pregnancy. Really I was ok with it. Knowing the babies were ok and in great hands gave me peace of mind. Although, now sleeping in my own bed, I can say I'm ok with being home too.

So for now, we are doing great and are resting at home trying to keep these babies in at least 5 more weeks!

Monday, July 28, 2014

Jude and Luke 7 months

(Warning... picture overload)
We are officially moving. Jude is rolling everywhere and Luke is army crawling/scooting. He'll get up on all for fours and then face plant so I know a real crawl is in the works. 

Jude has 2 teeth and Luke still has none. I guess Luke is making up for it by being more mobile.

They both are slowly getting the hang of sitting up. They'll do it alone fo a few seconds and then forget and fall over.

Eating food has become a fun endeavor. Jude looooves to eat... anything. Luke will eat but you have to be a little more forceful. We think his reflux is back so his willingness to eat can be spotty. 

Here's a look at an example of a daily schedule:
6:00a.m. Jude starts talking and playing
7:00a.m. Jude falls back asleep
7:45a.m. Jude and Luke starting waking up 
8:00a.m. 7oz bottle of formula and then a bowl of oatmeal with bananas
8:30-9:30a.m. play
9:30-11:00a.m. nap
11:30a.m. 7oz of breast milk
11:45a.m.- 1:00pm play
1:00-3:00pm nap
3:00 pm 7oz of breast milk and bowl of baby food
3:30-5:00 play
5:00-6:30 nap
6:30 7oz of formula
6:30-8:00 play
8:15- bed time

Every day is a little bit different. And some days we have things going on at night so we don't always stick to the schedule but they definitely let us know when they are hungry or tired.

They are still very good babies. We are still finding that Jude is more high maintenance than Luke. Luke is very laid back and when he's tired he'll close his eyes and go to sleep... say if we are out somewhere. Jude is my sleep fighter. If we are out he'll cry himself to sleep. Thankfully they both do a good job at home of simply going to sleep in their beds once we lay them down.

Our first family of 4 dinner date- El Mezcal (I thought we had done this many times before but going and sitting down we realized we hadnt!)

Went to the lake for the Jerkins' family vaca...

We drove over to Mt. View for a fun night on the square.

 They love hallie claire and she loves them.

Boat time

Although they only went out on the boat once, they loved it. They loved the water and sleeping on the boat. I think more than anything they loved this vacation because there was always someone to entertain them or hold them.

Jude makes this fake cry sound and the other day I was imitating him and this was his response...

It was hilariously pitiful.

Jude and Luke moving adventures...

Happy 7 months precious babies!